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trials and tribulations of eclectic chicken

does my bum look big in this?* January 17, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — eclectic chicken @ 8:40 pm

do these pants feel nice? feel my leg, is my skin smooth? do i look slim in this? do i look pretty? Appreciate me.

the pants probably do feel nice….but its the middle of the night i feel ill and i don’t want to feel your pants. In fact my pants: on you. Okay i suggested them…they look better than your grundies but take my suggestion that you wear them as being the positive and supportive thing.

I am ready to help you when i feel i can.

Yes your legs do feel smooth, its very exciting for you…its not very exciting for me ALL the time. Sometimes i struggle to keep up. I have smooth legs too and we don’t talk about them all the time.

Can you take as the positive out of this that i’m giving you shaving and grooming tips? (and helping shave the bits you find hard to reach).

Yes you do look slim, you look a damn sight slimmer than the man i loved for nearly seven years. You know what? His size didn’t bother me other than i thought he could be healthier. Its lovely that you are slimmer but you did it for you not me.

No you don’t look pretty, you look like the person i’ve lived with for seven years but slimmer and wearing womens’ clothes. You shine with happiness most of the time now…you move lighter….you smile more. I love each and every bit of you but if you constantly narrow the target down to ‘prettiness’ then you will fail.

I’m a blunt and literal Northerner and i’m not going to lie and say you are pretty.

I can see you making a handsome woman, a good looking woman, when you glow you are a beautiful person. But pretty….I’m a long way off seeing pretty.

Appreciate you?

I do…. but today i’m in bed feeling crap. Yes you’ve spent much of the day in housewife role….yes, you’ve joked (i think you are joking) that if we have a civil ceremony you’ll be wearing a big white dress. And yes you are looking after me wonderfully.

But you are going TOO fast. You are demanding i love, find, appreciate, feel, want etc etc so many things about you when  i’m still only a couple of weeks into our new reality and still reeling.

I will find new things i love in you at my own speed. You can’t force it.

*this phrase has not been uttered by Jane (yet)!


3 Responses to “does my bum look big in this?*”

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  2. debz furneaux Says:

    andrea, sorry to hear you are feeling poorly, hope u a bit better by the time u read this. i dont know how much experiance of trannies of all types u have had , but in mine they are utterly obsessed about being better girls than us girls – i think it goes with the territory – as if because they are crossing a line they have to be the best woman there is , their legs have to be smoother, longer, more toned, their outfits just the right length, the figure corseted if necessary,their make up has to be perfect – make up? ffs i have worn more makeup in candlyland than i have in the past 5 years – and while i dont consider myself a girlie girl i am not butch! i really can see where you are coming from – and hope jane will too – but this is kind of what all (specially newly found) tvs and ts’s do – i hope for all your sakes it calms down. if u need a rant please feel free to pick up the phone and rant away!!
    And jane – – cos i know u will read this – i am delighted in your delight and so pleased that you are finding the new experiences natural and wonderful – but for most of us the act of depilation is normal, boring and to be honest and damned chore – why the hell should my legs be smooth cos some bloke likes it and society expects it!! lol – the wearing of new underwear is always nice – but again we’ve been wearing pants without y’s buttons or holes for appendages for years and after the first flush of new knicker syndrome, it is just back to same old same old. so please forgive us if we cant maintain the level of excitement at your new found self that u would like. none of that is criticism of your joy, just a small bump off the pink cloud into reality land!

  3. Wonderer Says:

    “if we have a civil ceremony you’ll be wearing a big white dress. ”

    The things a woman has to put up with to get her partner to the altar 🙂

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